What Getting a Tattoo Taught Me about Pain and Healing

You can’t have one without the other.

Nisha Mody
5 min readMar 27, 2019
Tattoo and photo by feliine

I just got my first tattoo and I’m in love. I love the design and I loved the experience. But I didn’t expect to learn more about pain and healing than the literal pain and healing that came from getting a tattoo. Here are a few things I learned…

Self-inflicted pain is masochistic.

I wavered about getting a tattoo for years. Like many, I was scared of the pain. Would it hurt so much that I would move and mess it up? What if I started and it hurt too much to finish?

But I pulled the trigger and it wasn’t as bad as I made it out to be.

I actually enjoyed the pain…

…some of the time. Yes, I wanted it to end but there were several moments that the buzz of the needle and sustained jabbing kicked my endorphins into high gear. I wondered what this meant for other types of pain we inflict upon ourselves.

There are so many cruel messages I recite to myself on a daily basis:

  • You’re not doing enough.
  • You need to be more patient.
  • You need to stand up for yourself more.

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Nisha Mody

Writer. Feminist Healing Coach. Librarian. Cat Mom. I write about healing & justice. Read more at thehealinghype.com and hear me on my podcast, MigrAsians.